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Most days, I see traces
of the Vlad I fell in love with:

Sarcasm Vlad.
That's-what-she-said-Vlad.
Do-you-need-some-help-with-that-Vlad.
Vlad who reads.
The-world-is-going-to-pieces-but-we-can-fix-it-if-we-just-try-hard-enough-Vlad.
Of-course-you're-good-enough-Vlad.
Vlad who loves his mother.
I-want-a-giant-robot-Vlad.
Vlad who loves me.
Little-half-smile-Vlad.
Vlad who sings like it's a Disney movie.
I-think-you'd-really-enjoy-this-video-game-Vlad.
Vlad who thinks machines are beautiful.
What-do-you-MEAN-you've-never-seen-Star-Wars Vlad.
Honest-Vlad.
Vlad who is always there for me.
Vlad with the gorgeous eyes.
Turn-off-your-computer-or-it'll-get-slow-Vlad.
Vlad who loves politics.
Did-you-know-ninety-percent-of-the-world-has-herpes-Vlad.
Vlad who will travel the world with me if I ask.
We-are-GOING-outside-Vlad.
Do-anything-for-me-Vlad.
Vlad who thinks sitting on a roof with a box of fruit is a good date.

But it has been a long
time since this
was the Vlad who was around
most often.

Now it is blank-face-Vlad.
Silent Vlad.
Vlad who is always tired.
Vlad who rarely smiles.
Vlad who doesn't enjoy class and doesn't have enough money to do things he does enjoy.
Let's-just-watch-TV-Vlad.
What's-wrong-Kat-Vlad.

What's wrong is that eternal
weariness that
I see clearly. What's wrong
is that I am uncomfortable
with silence. What's wrong is that I haven't
enjoyed our time
together recently. What's wrong is
thinking that
I don't notice. What's wrong
is that I'm a little
afraid that the Vlad I started dating is on his way to being buried
forever in the Vlad who sits
beside me in silence and is rarely
actually happy.

What's wrong is that
get-some-rest-Kat-you-need-to-sleep-Vlad
doesn't let me return the favor.